I’ve been extremely ill this week, and felt extrem pain too.
And because I love writing in this blog, even when I was in pain I thought to myself “when I get better I will write about how I felt when I was in pain”
Now pain, is a word that has different meanings, but now I will only write about pure fiscal pain.
I had Vaginitis, and I’ve never heard of it in my entire life. and so it developed so much before I decided going to a dr.
so When I went I was already in so much pain. I woke up of pain asking my husband to take me to a hospital, because I could no longer take it.
in the coming days I’ve suffered.
I never knew this much of pain could exist, I screamed and cried, loud so loud.
I wished If I could do anything to stop this pain of coming.
I was hurt so much, that I cried of my heart asking and praying to Allah to relief me from what I was having.
it’s insane how weak I felt, how everything elese seemd meaningless until this pain goes.
I could not eat, sit, sleep, talk of pain.
I’m not completely well now, but so much better thanks to Allah.
I only started to get better when I started reading Qura’an. Thanks to Allah❤️❤️❤️🙏🏻
The other thing is how much it was awful for my lovely husband to see me in such pain.
everytime he hugs me all I want to do is cry so hard.
I felt if I cried enough pain would go.
but then I realized, that the more I pray it goes.
pain is a very strange thing. it changes a human in a matter of days, if not hours.
I feel like I look at everything differently now. everyday I had with no pain seems like heaven.
I’m much more thankful, to everything.
but first to Allah.
I think I was complaining so much about not having anything to do. Now I shall complain less, thank more.
I appreciate every day. every laughter with him.
I love him. so deeply
it makes me wanna cry.